Thanksgiving was fine. Spent part of the day with my mother’s family, including my grandmother, & the other part with family friends. All in all, it was fine. I really wasn’t expecting it to be difficult. As I said, Thanksgiving hasn’t been a big production in our family for years. That certainly was a welcome fact yesterday & probably did more to make it easy than having friends and family around.

Today was fine. Did a little work, ran some errands, played with the dogs, & just generally hung out & got some much needed sleep.

So, tomorrow Leo gets his sutures removed & I find out more details about what comes next. As much as I’m trying to focus on the fact that he’s ok today, I know tomorrow is still going to suck just because I’ll really have to think about what exactly does come next. But you know what, maybe there will be some decent statistics/odds. I’ll settle for decent. Good would be great. Fingers crossed & positive thoughts.


Today I finally got back to the gym. Haven’t been since…. Not that there was any connection between the gym & my mother’s death. I guess it was just part of my old routine that for some reason I hadn’t yet reintergrated into my new routine. So, we’ll see how good I am about going. Fingers crossed. It’s good for me.

It’s pouring rain now; a novelty here in LA. While I usually love the rain, I’m not such a big fan right now. The fact that I just drove home in it in the dark doesn’t help to improve my opinion. It’s not exactly conducive to a happy mood. But still, I’m ok today. And the day is over any way.

Another one down.

Oh, and don’t worry, I haven’t forgot about the upcoming holiday. Thanksgiving. Honestly, I’m not too worried about it. Thanksgiving really hadn’t been a major holiday for us in a while. Plus, I spent 10 years away from home on Thanksgiving. I’m kind of used to a low key Thanksgiving. For the most part that’s what this will be. I will be meeting up with a couple of my uncles & my grandmother to go eat dinner out–our family tradition. Yes, I’m definitely going to notice my mother’s absence. This is her family. Besides, she hated eating out & last year swore she wasn’t going to do it again. It’s my grandmother who is against anyone cooking. She doesn’t see why anyone should go to the trouble. My mother had planned to make a point of either cooking for the family this year or doing our own thing without her family. But now, I’m going on my own. After that, I’ll probably go to a family friend’s for dinner with my father. There should be enough distraction there that I won’t notice, but at the same time, I know I will. There’s no sense in fighting it or thinking otherwise. What I’m really dreading is Christmas. But I’m not ready to go there yet. I’m putting those plans off until I have to make a decision. Honestly, I’d be happy if the next 4 weeks would just disappear from the calendar this year. No chance of that I guess.