Currently listening to: Climbing Up the Walls by Radiohead (I’m a little obsessed with this song these days.)

I’m proud of myself. I spent a good 3-4 hours writing. Actually, it was more revising than anything.

I don’t know how I had intended the writing of this 2nd draft to proceed. I don’t think I was planning to plow through from beginning to end with no stops in between like I did for draft 1. That technique worked great for getting the story down on paper & out of my head. I had to keep myself from over thinking as I wrote it just to get through it.

So, now on draft 2, I’m wondering what I was planning to do. I don’t think I was just going to plow through again, leaving holes & problems to be fixed on draft 3, but maybe I was. Maybe I was thinking that I just needed to get through a draft in 1st person from beginning to end to see if it worked. (more…)

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As the day dragged on, my anxiety level has definitely amped up. I’m completely positive that Leo’s surgery is going to go fine tomorrow, but still…. It’s surgery & it’s not like I can really explain to him that I’m doing this to help him & that he’ll be fine–even though I keep doing exactly that. I just want tomorrow to go as quickly as possible & get him home.

I’m coming to terms with the fact that my chances of winning NaNoWriMo this year are quickly dwindling. And I’m okay with it. I thought doing NaNo would be a great distraction & return to normalcy, but I don’t think I’m ready. Throw in everything that’s been going on with Leo & I’m amazed I’ve even gotten 7,500 words in. I’m happy with the direction I’ve taken with the rewrite, but the reality is I can’t rush it if I want to do it right; & doing it right is going to take vast amounts of focus & concentration that I just don’t have right now. So, I’m letting myself off the hook. I will keep working on it. I still want to get draft #2 done (hopefully by the end of the year) and will continue to work on it. But, I’m going to be a little more lenient with myself & be ok with not being ready to dive in completely.

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